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Failed to Keep Faith

Sometimes there are incidents those force us to criticize the self. These are the moments when we failed to do something or fulfill the expectations of others from us. I have also faced such situations in life. Everyone faces, nothing special. But I would like to share as if these might can help you when you are in such situations.

I am a sikh person, so try to do the prayers according to the recommendations of the Spiritual teacher (Satguru). Also as I wear the religious dress always, knowns have the impression that I am near to God as I have to do or praise God. Some expect that I can help them by someone, by praying (Ardaas) or by telling them about any religious hymn to recite upto
some counts. This is not the faith in me. The faith is in God and the reason is that they forgot that they have the same power to pray. But never tried or some of those who try expect others to also pray for the same to make it work fast and strong. While we fail to fulfill these expectations, feel guilty as failed to help a needy person.

Here I would like to mentions the incident in our class. There was my class-fellow, Rohit Nayyer. He is devotee of Saee Baba Ji. He believes a lot in Saee. We were not that much friends, but the normal talk was there sometimes. One day we got a bad news that his father got a heart-attack. Before this he got two, but thank God those were mild. This time it was strong. Rohit left to look after his father as he was to be operated on.

After some days Rohit started attending the college. Father was not well yet. Rohit used to pray to Saee the whole day in class. He stay tensed all the time. Class-mates ask him about his fathers health. He believed that God will listen my wish as soon as possible. And it will benefit too. He said me several times to pray for his father to get well soon. I also did that. Prayed to God for his father.

But one day he said me again to pray. I don't know in real why, but I got angered as he was asking again and again to pray. And In anger, huh, I said him,"Look! I am not the secretary of God that you saying me again and again to pray to God for you father. I am also a normal person." After that day, I am not able to even look towards him while being face to face is a far talk. I felt a lot ashamed of my self and feeling till now. How would I face him if got a chance to meet in life? What would I do?

I didn't prayed for his father, but now praying for me asking to God to forgive me what I did with Rohit. I broke his believe from God's people. Not because I am, but he assumed me as God's person. A true pupil of God. But I failed to the importance given by God to me via him as asking to pray for his father. I think...... I believe that I failed to step one step towards God that thay.

I had heard that we shouldn't brake the faith of anyone, but failed to understand the ways and chances to keep them. I failed......................!

God at My Door

So, at last got an experience that should be shared with you. Today I given an interview for the job of a PHP developer. Before leaving from home I prayed to God to give the power to face the interviewee and avail the job. Even said twice "Sat Sri Akaal Ji" ( God is true. Wishing someone in Sikhism) to my mother for better. Found the location at right time and reported at the given time. The interview experience was good. I got a lot two know about that I don't know. So, now for future interviews I can prepare better.

While I was returning home required to stop at a crossing due to Red lights. There was a beggar lady asking for some money for food. At first I noticed her, I tried to look other side and also pushed my bike a little away from her direction. Usually while I see them, I always search my pocket for some change or even sometime even if have a 5 rupee coin or note. But this time I failed to even think about it while doing is a far away task. Then my mind stuck that what I was thinking of. When Bhagat Kabir Ji (an Indian Saint) found a dog taking his only meal away, he ran for the dog saying "Oh! God. Don't eat that Chapati dry. Have some Ghee." But here I was facing away from him.

It is believed and I think is also true that God resides in everyone. Even then we try to ignore, Ignore whom? our own Creator. While we (programmers) make some program or software, always do efforts to make it run according to us. But we try to run away from the order/instructions of our own creator. At last I failed to serve my owner/creator or can say donate something to God in return of he gave me good experience in interview. Here the reason was not that I was again avoiding, actual was that my mind made excuses to not to do so as not having change in my pocket while having a 20 rupee note. Oh! God please forgive me.

I remember that when I was being interviewed by a developer at TCS, India. The experience was that worst that I was praying in my mind "Oh God! please make me leave this place by any mean. I don't need this job. Please!". This was not because I didn't pray for the interview, but there wasn't any preparation for the interview at all. But felt ashamed when God helped me, even then I forgot him while God was standing at My Door to welcome and congratulate for the good experience.

Experience 24x7

This is my first blog entry on the first blog. There are several things we wish to share with someone special. The Life experiences constituting the joys & sorrows filled with the new experiments and observations. Until we do not find that special one, we keep on searching in this big platform of life for the right co-actor.

Everyone experiences and observes them according to their mind set. Everyone wants to share them, so I. Here I have chosen you, a huge number of co-actors instead of one. Don't worry, it is not till the time I found a life partner. It will continue up to the limit enjoyed and allowed by you. Take care, of yours & mine. God may bless us both for sharing the scenes of his huge movie, the life being Experience24x7.

Love to All!