Failed to Keep Faith

Sometimes there are incidents those force us to criticize the self. These are the moments when we failed to do something or fulfill the expectations of others from us. I have also faced such situations in life. Everyone faces, nothing special. But I would like to share as if these might can help you when you are in such situations.

I am a sikh person, so try to do the prayers according to the recommendations of the Spiritual teacher (Satguru). Also as I wear the religious dress always, knowns have the impression that I am near to God as I have to do or praise God. Some expect that I can help them by someone, by praying (Ardaas) or by telling them about any religious hymn to recite upto
some counts. This is not the faith in me. The faith is in God and the reason is that they forgot that they have the same power to pray. But never tried or some of those who try expect others to also pray for the same to make it work fast and strong. While we fail to fulfill these expectations, feel guilty as failed to help a needy person.

Here I would like to mentions the incident in our class. There was my class-fellow, Rohit Nayyer. He is devotee of Saee Baba Ji. He believes a lot in Saee. We were not that much friends, but the normal talk was there sometimes. One day we got a bad news that his father got a heart-attack. Before this he got two, but thank God those were mild. This time it was strong. Rohit left to look after his father as he was to be operated on.

After some days Rohit started attending the college. Father was not well yet. Rohit used to pray to Saee the whole day in class. He stay tensed all the time. Class-mates ask him about his fathers health. He believed that God will listen my wish as soon as possible. And it will benefit too. He said me several times to pray for his father to get well soon. I also did that. Prayed to God for his father.

But one day he said me again to pray. I don't know in real why, but I got angered as he was asking again and again to pray. And In anger, huh, I said him,"Look! I am not the secretary of God that you saying me again and again to pray to God for you father. I am also a normal person." After that day, I am not able to even look towards him while being face to face is a far talk. I felt a lot ashamed of my self and feeling till now. How would I face him if got a chance to meet in life? What would I do?

I didn't prayed for his father, but now praying for me asking to God to forgive me what I did with Rohit. I broke his believe from God's people. Not because I am, but he assumed me as God's person. A true pupil of God. But I failed to the importance given by God to me via him as asking to pray for his father. I think...... I believe that I failed to step one step towards God that thay.

I had heard that we shouldn't brake the faith of anyone, but failed to understand the ways and chances to keep them. I failed......................!